Wednesday, May 30, 2018

24 Hours

Each day we are given 24 hours of time. No more, no less. We can spend it however we please. You can use it productively or waste it. Its up to you. In fact that's really the only thing we can decide about ourselves: how we choose to spend our time.

But even if you waste your time for a day, all is not lost. The beautiful nature of time is that you cannot waste time in advance. Its not like money where you can spend all of it on a buying binge, possibly to the point in which you owe money. You can't do that with time. If you waste your 24 hours today, you will get a fresh 24 hours to work with tomorrow. You can't waste 48 hours today.

You can however have the perception of owing time. Like when you end up spending the day on YouTube instead of doing the work you had planned. Then you may think you are one day behind your expectations. But thats just perception (and a dangerous one). In reality you still give your time going forward.

Its a dangerous perception to feel like you are always behind. That you owe time. Its funny that when I quit my job, I thought that I would be relaxed and carefree to work on my projects, away from all the aggressive work deadlines. But it turns out that I still struggle to keep up with my own arbitrarily made deadlines. I've been reading a bit on stoicism and working on changing my views. Where I am right now is where I need to be. I'm working on truly believing that I am on the right path. Its easy to look at peers who have built great companies already. The ones who are doing what I am doing but are 10 years younger. We look at others and believe that maybe we should be there and not here.

In a world where we are always looking ahead, knowing that we are where we are and being happy about it is becoming more and more rare. A couple things that help are practicing being grateful: appreciating where you are where you came from appreciating the things you already have. The other one is meditation: learning to be in the moment. Not in the past or the future but in the present. Is it possible to be striving, pushing for high achievement in life yet still happy and relaxed? I think so but probably with time and practice. I don't think it comes naturally to most people.